Tuesday, 27 March 2012
I am Enough
Being 'enough' is a real issue for me. Being vulnerable has been a challenge. I have had to learn to be gentle with myself. To accept my limitations, to not push myself to the limit all the time. I need to tell myself I am enough. I am loved and capapble of loving deeply from the heart. I need to practice gratitude and joy, the antidotes of shame. I want to live an authentic life that means something. I want to feel like my sould is clean, that I can breathe freely, I want to be weightless. Shame makes me feel weighed down, heavy, laden. It gets stuck. I feel shame when I compare myself to others and wish my life to be like theirs, when I fail to see what I have or take care of it. I feel shame when I let myself be trampled, my dreams dismissed - I don't like myself when I don't stand up for me. I'm having a thoughtful couple of weeks, things are up and down. This is helping me a lot.